I don bloody choose to feel bad about certain things.
I mean if I'm talkin nonsense or smth with my frens , thats like a temporary relieve, but when everything settles down, we come back to reality, then everything comes flooding back. The confusing thoughts..... etc

Denise told me to give it time?
I guess I should. I mean I have definitely made the right decision to go poly. That's without a doubt. But should I have chosen NP instead?

My frens don feel right
I don feel right
My feelings don feel right.
Nothing feels right.

Everything's so . ARGH !

For those who are concerned. I truely am grateful for checking up on me and everything.
I will hopefully get things sorted out and all.

I don't choose to be troubled, sad or what we would now call, emo.
I mean nobody does. It doesn't feel good. Trust me. (Bar those who dress up to look emo)
Things just aren't going the way I want them too.

I'm really at a loss. Its like I've hit a dead end and the wall behind me caves in.

ARGH. fuck.

I don think this post is making much sense.
Fine. I shall stop here.








I got alot to say ! But I dunno how to put it into words.