Had a nice time out with Hanson and Joseph out today.
Hmmm. not sure if they noticed but I turned abit emo at the end. Shit!
Sorry about that if you guys realised.

Actually, to be frank, sometimes I do not know why am I emo. Maybe its just a combination of matters. Friends and matters of the heart are certainly somewhere in that mix. Lets dissect this whole matter.

Friends.
I surrounded by loads of them, good ones to be exact. Church ones are fine and dandy. No problems with them. Not with me anyway.

Its outside of church where I amd having this problems. Its just that I feel empty inside. I wont mention names so as to avoid misunderstandings la. Anyway, From a few people that I talked too, and from my own realisation, those who come from BIGGER cliques in their secondary school are having problems finding their "true" friends.

Its not that people in schools, poly whatever are no good. Don't get me wrong. I don't mean new friends are not good frens, they are. But as quoted from ***, "mei2 you3 mo4 qi4" or even "fair-weather friends" Then I've been thinking, the only way to solve this problem is, well, not to compare your new friends with your old ones. Like the saying goes, its easier said than done. Sometimes when your new frens do something OR don't do something you'll be like "oh.. okay" and then put on a smile. But subconsciously you'll be thinking "so and so wouldn't have been like this." Things like that.

I'm feeling really empty at the moment. Tho I think 1B21 is as good a class I can and will ever get in poly. xD But with little familiar or close friends around, like people have said. There is a lack of someone to confide in. I mean there's only Winnie in SP la that I'm close too. To make matters worse, we're at either end of the campus. AND our timetable always clashes.

I mean where's my MEIs and DAJIE? MY LAOPA? MY LAOPOs? oh MY HAFIZ !!!

Ya. so the point is as good as my poly friends are, I WILL STILL MISS MY MF frens. D;

OH. btw. some people who like to talk about me behind my back, just do it in my face.
THANKS xD cos I really wanna know what the hell is your problem.

Matters of the heart. This is a complicated one to be honest. Alot of the times, I like to let it be and make everything work out for itself. But sometimes its the question what if it doesn't work out the way I want ?

Life is very unpredictable. So you never know what will happen.

Its hard to love someone, no I correct myself. its painful to love someone. More often than not people like myself get tangled up in this kinda thing and its hard to find a way out.

Sighs. Just hope for the best.

But I'd like to thank Jolene, Amanda, Yong Wen, Doreen, Ivy and Joseph for like listening to me and encourgaing me and everything ! THANKS !

I hope can solve my problem soon xD


-emoing. x((