Hahaha. Back to school after a weekend break. HAHA.
Had microbiology prac today la. Then teacher pair us up. Some people (guy/girl) looked liek such a cute couple if ever were they together.

Anyway. this brings me to what I wanna say today.
I feel weird over alot of things. I mean I dunno what to makeout of certain things. I'm not gay so naturally like any other guy Iam interested in girls. If I was a girl then I'd say I am interested in a guy, but thats a whole different story. LOL.

Back to the point. SO I kinda had feelings for a GIRL (not gay) ^^
But I dunno what to make of it. Like Hanson said, how much am I willing to risk to get this relationship? He added on to my initial fears that if I tried letting the person know how I felt, the friendship may be gone. Well, I really didn't know how to answer. Cos I am willing to risk alot, but am not willing to risk our friendship. Which is quite a big thing.

But then again like I said in an earlier post I am confused. Its till now that I realised, a woman's mind is more complicated than I thought. Just when I thought I figured it out. Something changed. HAHA. well. its like that. I was seriously so troubled la. To the extent of wanting to like just forget the whole thing. So I did alot of talking to myself. I was like. "Okay, Since everything is as it is, I should just..." and I couldn't complete the sentence.

Someone asked me to focus on her weakness, which I clearly did not do. That's like so superficial. I mean if I could forget or give up that easily, I don't think I really love her eh? Don't you think?

For now, I'll just let nature take its course and we'll see how. xD
(In a more laid back mood) I hope I can get a mummy for my daughters and a sis-in-law for my sisters.


AH whatever. I go watch tv liao.

Either way people, LOVE ME ^^
WAHAHHHAHAA.

someone PLEASE jio me out play pool !




hmmm. went out today with Jeremy, Chrys, Hanson and Joseph.
We went for soup spoon.
Tho I didn't say it then, but that grande clam chowder was super ger-lat. LOL. if you get what I mean. Afterall they were busy gossiping and I was told of some rather unhappy events x(


But anyways, everything was like bright and cheery when we played pool.
Well, I gotta lie about this one so that Chrys will come tag my blog.

CHRYSTAL IS DROP DEAD GORGEOUS AND SEXY WHEN SHE PLAYS POOL !

Anyway, had fun playin pool and everything. It was the only time when my mind was free of the confusing and what so ever thoughts. Maybe shld go play pool more often ! ^^


Photos.. xD










She's tryin to act glam xD


















The super HOT *ahems* auntie xD




















JOSEPH !





















HANSON !

















PEEPING ! nah hanson was inside not some girl. LOL.
AH ! i cant find jeremy's pic. DAMN! x(( sorry


















I'm tired. I truly am.
How much longer can I wear that smile?




I don bloody choose to feel bad about certain things.
I mean if I'm talkin nonsense or smth with my frens , thats like a temporary relieve, but when everything settles down, we come back to reality, then everything comes flooding back. The confusing thoughts..... etc

Denise told me to give it time?
I guess I should. I mean I have definitely made the right decision to go poly. That's without a doubt. But should I have chosen NP instead?

My frens don feel right
I don feel right
My feelings don feel right.
Nothing feels right.

Everything's so . ARGH !

For those who are concerned. I truely am grateful for checking up on me and everything.
I will hopefully get things sorted out and all.

I don't choose to be troubled, sad or what we would now call, emo.
I mean nobody does. It doesn't feel good. Trust me. (Bar those who dress up to look emo)
Things just aren't going the way I want them too.

I'm really at a loss. Its like I've hit a dead end and the wall behind me caves in.

ARGH. fuck.

I don think this post is making much sense.
Fine. I shall stop here.








I got alot to say ! But I dunno how to put it into words.




Hmmm. when out with my secondary school frens today ! HAD ALOT OF FUN. Cam whoring. LOL. Its good to see a smile on their face after hearing so many complaints. OH I miss that council pres too !

Both la. The short and the not so short. AKA, XinMun (short) Ming Jun(not so short) HAHA.

Anyway I felt worry-free during that time with them. I really wish this (getting split up) wasn't happening. I wan to be back in secondary school la. To think I was craving to get out few months back.

But thats besides the point. But all in all. Had fun today. Took two neoprints with SOPHIE !! and MIN !! after AJ idol in which 10/13 sucked including the winning team no offence. LOL. we went to KFC to cam whore with XM's computer.

Gosh we were so retarded.
Never felt so good in a long time. Then I got home checked my email, bathe and I felt this sudden emo surge. Well since Denise was online thot I'd just talk to her for abit.

Well, shan't go into details BUT..

Denise aka COOKIEMONSTER is officially nice xD




I'm feeling real empty right now. I think poly is okay so far. I mean at least I'm sure I didn't make the wrong choice.

But I hear all my friend's bad time in JC i feel so useless. I know there's nothing I can do, but I cant grit my teeth and stay out of the whole thing. How am I expected to smile when all of my frens are fretting and frowning ?

Its not just one or two that I'm talkin about. It quite a number of them that are dear to me.
Sighs.

My dear friends, I hope that after reading this you won't stop confiding in me. Just because you are afraid you make me worry. In fact that will make me feel even worse. Because I will know that something is bothering you but I would not know what. At least now, I can still give advice and at least lend a listening ear. I would still feel like a worthwhile friend. If you cease to confide in me, I'll be even more worried. Don't worry about me.

Alot of us say we don't like Mayflower, but do we really ? Yes, Mr Prem caught us (even me) for grooming or playing a fool, teachers scolded us for not handing in homeowork, getting nagged at all the time during assembly. To most of us, Mayflower is definitely not our choice school. My fifth choice to be exact. None of us thought Mayflower could provide us with a good education. Many still think Mayflower hasn't provided us with the best education.

But at the end of the day, when we look back at our secondary school life, I trust that we have made true friends. I know I have. I also know for one that teachers like Ms Sim, Mr Prem, Mrs Selva, Mr Chng, Mr Ong, Ms Balan, Mdm Chua, Mrs Ess... etc have given us our fair share of naggings, but who would argue against their care for us?

I read blogs and I hear from people that many ex-Mayflowerians reminisce about the past. So if we "don't like" Mayflower, why do we reminisce about the past? The answer is simple. Although we may not like Mayflower for the education it has given us, The friends we made along the way. The care and concern the teachers gave us during our four years there more than makes up for it.

To me, Ms Angie Sim has been the best council teacher I could've asked for, alongside Mrs Linda Pang, and for those who still rmb, Ms Emily Low will always be a great teacher and a wonderful fren. xD

I do not hate Mayflower. But make no mistake neither do I love it nor am I promoting it now. Its just that whenever I step back into Mayflower, memories just keep flowing back. To be honest, as much as I am a councillor during my time in Mayflower, I have never felt a sense of belonging to MF that people claim we would have, I only felt a sense of belonging to the student council. But only now, after I see my friends scattered all over, and when I have this funny feeling whenever I read someone else's blog, maybe now I'm starting to understand.

Whatever the case, Mayflower has provided me with the best friends I could've asked for. nobody can replace them. and certainly nothing and nobody can erase the memories we share. Because I know, no matter how well I do geniuses out there will always beat my results. But no matter how many friends I make, or how many people score better than me, these memories are deeply engraved at the bottom of my heart.

Results are important. But they are not everything. Don't get me wrong. I'm not asking you to forsake your studies for you friends. But as long as you know you have done your best, Be satisfied. Treasure the finer and more important things in life.

All I'm saying is that I miss my frens, my juniors and my teachers.
Esp my friends. Continue to stay positive and stay strong. xD
Love ya!!








The weird stuff they do.













HAHA. see I told you ! she's blind.
Denise act cute. don bother. LOL.












She's blind, I'm trying to be blind. HAHAHA













She's "blind"














Tell me she looks retard. xD


















The grinded sand. It took us around 2 hours to achieve this. x((













Our lab xD super nice




















The one on the left is a MUGGER. also go toilet mug. LOL. ooooops. kidding.













The finishing touches. LOL.
Mind you that thing the cookie monster was on
was vibrating. LOL.













So we just had to kill the cookie monster. xD













DIE !

Mrs Nordlund supports MANCHESTER UNITED ! x( There goes my diploma plus. LOL.
Just kidding. xD

I'll like so laugh at her when Liverpool beat ManU in the Champs League Finals la. I mean that's IF they even make it pass AC Milan, who by the way ALSO lost to Liverpool. Stupidly surrendering their 3-0 lead. Better not talk too much sia. WEE SIONG HATES ARROGANCE. LOL.


Anyway, Had a few amusing moments in school. Mainly during Math when Mrs Nordlund claimed Samuel was out to make her miserable and cry, or the time she "puked" when I shouted Liverpool when she said her fav and best team was MANCHESTER UNITED *pukes*

LOL.


Oh then during Ms Ee's (the hotness factor 100 one) lesson, her form class guys as usual disturb her. This time was super funny la. We were talking about gas being under pressure. She was trying to give an example. She started by asking "I'm sure you guys don't like to be pressurized right ?"

I guess she was expecting us to say YES, well she kinda got what she thought, and more. LOL. The guys were like YES, we don't like. Then someone added "unless its by you"

She was like so totally blushing. HAHA.
but she's nice la. Unless she's in that PMS mood if we talk too loudly when we talk. HAHA.

The rest of the day was average. xD

OH. I have CPB prac tmr ! gotta go read up.

BYE BYE ! ^^




JOHN OFFICIALLY ROCKS ! THANKS ALOT xD

I guess guys really have their pride. I mean John and I wanted to talk to each other about some personal stuffs for quite long. HAHA. but we both felt weird. Surprisingly its girls that actually got us talking.

His long paragraph of advice really helped me. And I'm feeling really happy now.

Gosh I cant put it into words but ya. You know I love you xD not literally, thats for someone else. HAHA. Oops

THANKS A MILLION


-dedicated to John Han

You better be honoured !! x))

_____________________________________________________________________

Also I especially wanna thank "old" GYMers like Hanson, Joseph, Jolene and Amanda too. Thanks. Now I know what true frens are, and what true frens are for. Love you guys.

Others that have talked to me, Yong Wen, Doreen and Ivy. Love you guys too. xD




Hmmm.

Samuel was talking crap while we left the libray. Then it turned out that we (Wee Siong, Sam and I) were so amused three of us stood in front of the library door waiting for it to open. Smauel even tried to pry it open la. Then after like a min or so we realised we've been standing in front of the "IN" door. The stupi sign was right in front of our face la.

UBER PAISEH. Then walked out thru the right door. tio laughed at by people. walao !


Anyway, Met winnie after that ate drumlets and went home with her. So took train to cityhall then change. HAHA. NO no we alighted at Raffles Place, cos smart ME knew at Raffles sure got place to sit. LOL.


Then rest of the day was average.


OH !


Wee Siong taught me this




I think my emo post got from bad to worse cos I'm rather distracted and everything so I think some parts abit make no sense. LOL.




Had a nice time out with Hanson and Joseph out today.
Hmmm. not sure if they noticed but I turned abit emo at the end. Shit!
Sorry about that if you guys realised.

Actually, to be frank, sometimes I do not know why am I emo. Maybe its just a combination of matters. Friends and matters of the heart are certainly somewhere in that mix. Lets dissect this whole matter.

Friends.
I surrounded by loads of them, good ones to be exact. Church ones are fine and dandy. No problems with them. Not with me anyway.

Its outside of church where I amd having this problems. Its just that I feel empty inside. I wont mention names so as to avoid misunderstandings la. Anyway, From a few people that I talked too, and from my own realisation, those who come from BIGGER cliques in their secondary school are having problems finding their "true" friends.

Its not that people in schools, poly whatever are no good. Don't get me wrong. I don't mean new friends are not good frens, they are. But as quoted from ***, "mei2 you3 mo4 qi4" or even "fair-weather friends" Then I've been thinking, the only way to solve this problem is, well, not to compare your new friends with your old ones. Like the saying goes, its easier said than done. Sometimes when your new frens do something OR don't do something you'll be like "oh.. okay" and then put on a smile. But subconsciously you'll be thinking "so and so wouldn't have been like this." Things like that.

I'm feeling really empty at the moment. Tho I think 1B21 is as good a class I can and will ever get in poly. xD But with little familiar or close friends around, like people have said. There is a lack of someone to confide in. I mean there's only Winnie in SP la that I'm close too. To make matters worse, we're at either end of the campus. AND our timetable always clashes.

I mean where's my MEIs and DAJIE? MY LAOPA? MY LAOPOs? oh MY HAFIZ !!!

Ya. so the point is as good as my poly friends are, I WILL STILL MISS MY MF frens. D;

OH. btw. some people who like to talk about me behind my back, just do it in my face.
THANKS xD cos I really wanna know what the hell is your problem.

Matters of the heart. This is a complicated one to be honest. Alot of the times, I like to let it be and make everything work out for itself. But sometimes its the question what if it doesn't work out the way I want ?

Life is very unpredictable. So you never know what will happen.

Its hard to love someone, no I correct myself. its painful to love someone. More often than not people like myself get tangled up in this kinda thing and its hard to find a way out.

Sighs. Just hope for the best.

But I'd like to thank Jolene, Amanda, Yong Wen, Doreen, Ivy and Joseph for like listening to me and encourgaing me and everything ! THANKS !

I hope can solve my problem soon xD


-emoing. x((




I feel so shitty now la.

totally useless.
Can't I be more decisive?
****

I'm super confused. My mind is in a daze.
Its quite hard when you gotta put on a false front.
I hate that feeling of hiding behind.
But I don't have that courage to break out.




Is cancelling things out THAT fun? LOL.

YuP. its is.LOL


andthisisbreakingmyheart
ifthereisawayi'lltakeit







Wee Siong (:




















Can you believe this is a ruler?



















Math lesson during our break.
















IDEAS lesson. with THAT teacher
*raise eyebrows*














Jian Wei (:


















Our toilet. Like zoo de.

















Playing pool


















Table soccer





















More pool. xD















She's amused
















So is she.


















He looks happy xD
















Not as happy as after he saw...
HAHA

























A picture paints a thousands words. And based on that, I wrote quite a few thousand words. HAHA. enjoy.




Hope I can go AJC family day tmr. All depends on whether I can arrange piano and do finish my homework. D;




I was so afraid I was late today la. taking the ever packed Pasir Ris train.
Bu suprisingly I reached on time 7.47 okays. so I'm 2 mins late but thats like so much better than the 13 mins I was late by yesterday. LOL. Gimme credit la.

As usual the guys started our crapping as we shuffled our way thru the sea of people. okay. i'm exaggerating. but there really were alot of people la. So off we went to meet out new teacher. A certain Dr Mok that is. He was like late for (according to him 14mins 30secs) right.. Anyway he is damn funny eccentric. Dr Lim (Inorganic & Organic Chem) is considered a mild joker compared to him.

I seriously thought he acted and looked senile. LOL. he turned out to be eccentric and rather sharp and notice things quickly/

Three of the most notable jokes from today's lesson with MOK (not darren)

First was about he teaching us about facts of life. The reason why you must let other people walk first is so that if anything happens, it happens to them first ! WTH. He was like you see I'm no gentleman when I let you guys go in the class first. Because after not being used for over 6 weeks, there may be bad air, so you breathe it in I don't OR there may be spirits. which possess you not me. So always let others go first. xD stupid logic.

Then he was like SP students are greedy. One guy went to old folks home help to clean up. He saw a plate of peanuts on the table. Then he asked the old man for permission to eat one. Upon realising the peanuts for nice, he requested to eat more. Then he realised the old man had no teeth.

So he asked him "Uncle, how do you eat the peanuts if you do not have any teeth?"

The man replied " Oh! my son bought me chocolates with peanuts. I suck out the chocolate and left the peanuts in that bowl."

GOSH ! another stupid joke.


LAst one. He said he has a friend, a doctor. He notice that his name tag was Dr Kua T.S
So he asked "why don you put your full name on your name tag ?"

The doctor replied"I'm a doctor and no patient would want to see a doctor name
Kua Tio See"
Kua Tio See is hokkien for once consulted you will die. SUPER LAME.

Then he carried on saying he had a student called Boy Low Ti (buy bread in hokkien)

The worse one was he said I told you all earlier my name was Mok Chee Ho. Actually I changed my name. It was originally Mok CB. go figure. LOL.

Damn it sia. Super funny.
Then after that lesson, we went to the science lab.
Listen to some crappy rules which are actually common sense. What made it worse is all the labs have the SAME RULES. Zzz.

And we realised that Dr Lim can mood swing sia. LOL. scary. He was joking with us and within a second scolding a guy from another class just trying t pass a msg to him D;

Better not get on his black books. xP

Then after school went to popular buy book. Oh and Samuel intro some of us to Mei Qi I think thats how to spell her name. xD She easy to talk too la. Like any other people from poly. Had lunch together watched some STG blog thanks to Sharad. Then I went to make IC, EZ link and POSB card. xD

now i'm home.

gotta study le. HAHA.
hardworking poly student=ELIJAH


sometimes seeing my friends in trouble or facing problems I just wanna help them but can't because I know we're not in the same school any more and it'll be so much harder. Zzz. but I'll do my best.




Heyy xD

Today Met Samuel, Wee siong, Sharad and Jen Kaen in the morning to go class. I was late. Oops. LOL. The first lecturer Dr Lim super funny la. I love his lessons so comical and sacarstic sia.

Then it was a break eat some healthy stuff like soya bean and tuna sandwich.
After that off to play pool at the moberly. Wee Siong and I went to find his pencil box first before going thr find the rest. After playin we rushed off to the ever strict Ms Ee's lesson. she, well wasn't the best teacher around la. But understandable. abit too fast only.

After that was math. Another super comical teacher sia. Gosh rocks. She made such a boring chapter linear graphs come alive ^^

I rushed thru my day cos I wanna type the funny parts.

First one was a conversation between Sam, Wee Siong and Me

Wee Siong : You got two older sisters izzit ?
Sam : Ya
Sam : Got one brother also. So means two guys two girls la.
Wee Siong and I : Huh?! you guy aH ? LOL.

its lame la. but at that time Samuel's reaction super funny. His standard line is Na Bei nvr tio whack before izzit? LOL.

Then later after school going home Sam, Wee Siong and I met Connie and Denise. Then Sam Wee Siong and Connie take towards Pasir Ris, Denise and I towards Jurong East to change train. Anyway thats not the point what happen was first train came we waved at the three of them they waved back. Then after their train pass they stood in a line la super stupid looking. cos they couldn't squeeze in. Then Denise and I laughing at them. Later our train came. Gosh nd now denise and I were stranded la. We were like where to hide our face super paiseh sia. Just nice our train left their train came and they saw thru their train window. Uber paiseh. I think I looked stupid la. HAHA.

So its confusing nvm. at least I understand. Oops. LOL.
i gotta go sleep alr. tmr meeting the guys cant be late. xD early release tmr. Going make IC, EZ link card and POSB card !! YAY !

OH ! just to clear the air I don mean John doesn't like his JC frens he thinks they are super fun just that mei you mo qi. HAHA.

and sophie !! CHEER UPS !! ^^












Look how GAY they are. tsk tsk.

















Three pigs.














Emo-ing. LOL













Badly deprived childhood


















Childhood.












They have same look. Can't be helped eh.
*hint hint*













Gosh she fit inside the damn cupboard!







HAHAHA. I alr made a few good frens at SP. Wee Siong, Samuel, Sharad(scholar. 5 pointer nehs) and Ryan.

Wee Siong and I always getting lost together. Like late for first lesson of the day cos we both reach Dover late then walk around trying to find T5. Then later when walking with class EITHER one of us will suddenly remember then we break off from them.

Oh. then there's also Samuel. Super enthu. Damn funny de. and TWO-TIMER. LOL. jkjk. nice guy. tried to teach us play big fish small fish but failed attempt. During the flag day it was Wee Siong, Samuel and I plus one or two that come and go. The rest of my class like Sharad and Ryan are super nice to talk too la. The other guys I not too close to them yet. but nvm I'll know them xD

Then the girls are pretty easy to get along with too. I expect them to be super tao and everything but they're like opposite. HAHA. super fun. Then two girls, I think Connie and Denise started screaming behind Wee Siong, Samuel and I cos the rain reached them. uber funny at that time la.

Then I had to make new SP card. WTH. thanks to the lost of my wallet. Then Wee Siong followed me around SP. Try find the place to make the card and do payment.

Lessonswise, First lesson(Inorganic & Organic Chem) I think is Dr Lim plump guy. but super funny and lame. Seems knowledgeable and fun. xD

Second lesson (Chemical Process Principals B) Ms Ee. Some young (and according to samuel hotness factor 100) lecturer. She's v confident. Though many thought she was arrogant. She seems well trained enough. First Class honours wor. Although it was from overseas Uni but still. She also had this funny accent. Got used to it after awhile. My first impression of her, chio but strict. LOL.

Then we had MATH !! Diploma Plus. My whole class Diploma Plus leh. Pro ma ? say yes!! ^^V Teacher was Pearly Nordlurd. Mrs P Nordlurd. She's a cute& funny teacher. 5mnths pregnant. Prefers us to call her cher. and damn lame. But I like her class.

Oh then during lunch I had to hunt for an hour before finding a place to sit and eat la. zzz. had macs. so sian. Then Sharad was complaining about pimples. make me feel guilty LOL. After lunch had our fourth lesson, Microbiology de practical Teacher is Mrs Ku. Seems okay to me for a discipline mistress of CLS. HAHA. Abit too longwinded tho.

After school went with class to look at CCA exhibition. Some guys thinking of joining CSCC (Community Service & Cultural Club) I deciding whether anot to join guitar plus CSCC. and the guys also plan to take a look at this sat BBQ for Campus Crusade. I mean $4 for BBQ is quite reasonable la. tho its fat and all. Must go run. we plan wed go gym. LOL.

All in all had a fun but tiring day at SP today. I think I could get used to this. Time to study ^^

Hey to my frens out there having problems coping with the JC workload or having problems with frens. I want you to know you're not alone. Many others out there are facing the same problem. Just be contented with one or two real frens. The rest, as john says, can be fair weather frens. xD

Even John thinks his Sec sch frens are better. So just enjoy their company have a great two years. and for the guys, see you in uni. Girls, see you at work ? LOL.

Love ya guys !

Pictures x))






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